I have gone through from being a banker to a call center agent then a house wife. After several trials, I realized the reason behind me not being able to decide on what I should be, is because I didn't know what I wanted. I am a wide reader, read a lot of books for I've always been curious how things work.
Just last year I started reading 'Purpose Driven Life' then I stopped on the part where the author said that we should do what we want. I decided to search my heart on what I really want for myself and not what others want me to do.
I looked at currrent situation and all that I have been through. I listened in what this life is telling me. I started believing in myself and relying on God more. I realize the importance of prayer in everyday life.
I thought of my job experiences and asked myself if I would still want to go back to those type of jobs. A teller in a tellers cage or a call center agent which, is in a cubicle behind the phone. Then, these words came to me:
And I said to myself, how much I wanted to be seen by people. I am no longer in hiding, I want to get out of my shell and be the best that I can be.
I started going out and search for work. In every application I sent, I prayed to God to direct me to the right path. I got several offers but I waited for the one that I really wanted. The wait was very long to the point that I almost lose hope. And then, God's assurance gave me the patience I needed:
25"Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you shall eat or what you shall drink, nor about your body, what you shall put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? 26Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? 27And which of you by being anxious can add one cubit to his span of life? 28And why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow; they neither toil nor spin; 29yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. 30But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is alive and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will he not much more clothe you, O men of little faith? 31Therefore do not be anxious, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' 32For the Gentiles seek all these things; and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all. 33But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things shall be yours as well.
34"Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Let the day's own trouble be sufficient for the day. Matthew 6:25-34
I cried everytime I read this passage. When I feel so down. I pray more and asked for prayers from others. I even sent a prayer request on this website :
And instead of just waiting, I decided to prepare myself for the interview. I read books and reviewed my CV to make sure that I'll know what to say during the interview.
After a month & a week later. The final interview was set. I was really excited knowing that this is it for me. I didn't assume that I'm gonna get the job, just knowing that I've been given this chance was enough for me. At least, if I don't get the job, I'll know what to do next.
On the interview itself, for some reason I wasn't nervous at all. As if, God was there with me giving me the words that I should say. And even when I was actually being interviewed by the AVP of the company. I stayed calm and focused. It was an unforgettable experience because I was surprised with the way things turned out and how easy it was for me.
I got the job, I was given such an opportunity to bring change in my life and in turn, bring change the lives of others.
Why do I consider this a miracle?
1.) I didn't have the experience for the job that was being offered. I just said to myself, all I needed to know was what to do and do it.
1.) I didn't have the experience for the job that was being offered. I just said to myself, all I needed to know was what to do and do it.
2.) I didn't work for 1 year & 3 months so being offered a position as a manager will seem to be impossible.
3.) I just got married and in the corporate world, a newly married woman will be a threat since there is a possibility of resignation due to pressure that marriage brings.
I'm set on a new adventure in life. And what I've learned with this experience is that your current situation is never a constant thing and you can never based your future on what you have today.
God sees us and He knows what we are going through. God is not just concern with the spiritual aspect of our lives but also the financial part of it.
Although 'Love of money is said to be the root of all evil.' It doesn't mean that having a better life is a bad thing. Think of David, Solomon and Job and many more personality in the bible that was blessed in every way, spiritually and financially.
Since we are created in God's image we should live a better life because God never gives less but abundantly.
